TheHausoulsDownunder

The months have gone by, it seems like yesterday when we gathered for Eriks 18th Birthday. 

We keep ourselves busy which is distracting from the grief we feel every day and we continue to work on our Mind, Body, Soul practices to help us.

On 12th January we drove down to Jenolan Caves and stayed overnight. We went on two walking tours of the caves and a walk in the area, it is a beautiful place to visit and Aimee saw a Platypus in the river.

We also went to Marouba beach one time and another time to Coogee beach.

During February Aimee moved into the room we were renovating. There were some tears because the room was originally being renovated for Erik and memories flooded back of his involvement in the renovation and his plans for the room, it made Erik very happy and many people helped us to make it happen.  We know that of all the people in the world, the person Erik would have wanted to have the room is Aimee.   

Going back to work and school was not easy and Johan and Aimee are now back into the routine. I have started a Secretarial Service from home and have been conducting research for the book, compiling a great deal of useful information and organising what Erik wanted us to do for him and many others who have suffered just as he did.

 My birthday was in February.  I was reticent about it at first because it was my first birthday in 18 years without Erik, but Johan and Aimee wanted me to enjoy my birthday.  We went to a local restaurant with friends which was a pleasant evening.

This is what grieving is partly about, containing and putting the mixed feelings into some sort of perspective - life does go on - but every day we miss our wonderful son and brother.  A friend of ours who lost his wife said that in the beginning he looked for just 1 second in the day where he did not feel devastated and over time, that 1 second became 2, then 3, 4, 5 until it grew into an hour.  Five years have passed now and he never forgets, but in time he was able to think of other things and it is less painful.